How strong is your ego?

Certainly not as strong as it used to be lol! In fact I am quite pleased at how much awareness I have around it and how little I allow it to control me or make decisions from ego or  separation from Truth, others, Self and from what I want.

When several years ago astrologer Marielle Croft http://www.croftastrologer.com/ suggested I look at my ego I was baffled - being the behind the scenes person not needing the spotlight I could not understand what she could possibly mean. Then I realized it had nothing to do with that at all but with my need to be right, to make others see themselves and take responsibility and a tendancy to want/need to control.
 
A short while after that I was in a  relationship in which my ego was activated on a regular basis and I GOT what she was talking about. Thankfully I was ready and willing to look at myself by that time and embarked on a deep adventure of self exploration & acceptance. 

This is not to say that it is easy however, it has brought greater awareness to my ways of being, relationships and much more peace and joy into my relationship with Self and others.

I recently wrote a paper on using the ego as a tool for personal growth; by noticing when and how the ego is active (awareness) we can choose to investigate the triggers and reactions to heal the past and to create something "other" than we have. This has helped me immensely and I continue to do so - in this case I am grateful for the "assistance" of my ego :)

How strong is my ego? At this time, in this moment I would say 2 or 3 out of 10.

Peace and love,
Tatiana