The hardest thing to change about myself would be not being honest.

Well, I am doing some of it but there is more I am working to manifest :)

I've been off the radar since January or February and am glad to be taking the time to visit here today and to write. Funny too because this question is EXACTLY what I've been thinking about.

I've spent the past 7 months working 60 to 100 hours a week planning, preparing and putting a festival on. The result was a magical conscious community experience something to be proud of but the workload has left me exhausted, on every level.

This week I have been dreaming about what I'd like to be doing this month - and although I am doing some of it - I still have post fest wrap up work to do so I cannot do it all.

This week am loving up my Self and my home after many months of neglect. I love to be attending TIFF (Toronto International Film Festival) and then head to the Bay area to attend Symbiosis, then to LA for a week for some time with the ocean and lots of yoga, exploration and adventure (I am doing this part) and then I'd head to Vancouver, BC for the Vancouver International FIlm Festival adn to visit my West Coast community.
 
I have yet to decide what to do in November as I have the month off to make up for overtime but a sunny destination sounds good. And both India and Africa are calling at this time. Oh and a dance workshop in there too. Some swimming, photography and more music. Dinner parties and spending time with loved ones woud be awesome too.

II guess I am doing lots of what I'd like to be doing and am enjoying life moment by moment - but there are always more things I'd love to spend my time doing.

Namaste,
Tatiana

Right now? Sleep.

In general? Peace. Quiet. A vacation. Sunshine. To go swimming.

Drums - all kinds of hand drums and kit too. I love to dance to the beats and to watch people move. Beats can be so simple and primal or complicated divisions of time. They touch me at the core and help me to connect, with mySelf, Earth, Others.

My highest self wants me to be OK. (With what is and to not worry/stress about that which I cannot control.)  Let go. Accept. Surrender. And trust. I am growing.

Off the top of my head, if I had all the time in the world I would swim, dance, play, write, practice yoga, read, take photos, spend time with friends and family, share, sit by lakes and rivers, walk through forests, make love, ride my bike, learn an instrument and play music and travel. I would do all the things I enjoy doing but more often and perhaps for longer periods of time than I do now.

No doubt I would spend more time volunteering for more organizations & participate in campaigns supporting human rights and environmental issues.

And I am sure I will think of more things as the day goes on :)

Work. I'd like a person or two to assist with some tasks currently associated with my position due to lack of resources. Or the resources to hire one or two skilled folk to take some responsibility off me.

More breathing less stress. Less work more play.

Having said this, I enjoy my work very much. I just need more support to do it in a healthy manner.

I have asked and am working on manifesting it.

Peace and thanks.

Cry.

I am so sorry I have been so out of touch - with you, with me. Every day I recieve these questions and for the past month or more have read them and deleted as I have been "too busy" to reply and take the time for me.

I started a (fabulous) new job and have put so much of myself into it I have not made time for me or you.

Sorry about that. I am glad to have done so in this moment and send you and me love and support.

Here for us in this moment,

xo Tatiana

At times, myself. Ways of being which do not serve me. Luckily I am able to work through this rather quickly as I know that I am doing my best, that all is perfect the way it is - and so am I.